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Ruth Gledhill

A one-time leading light in the Christian "Quiverfull" movement made famous by the Duggar family, and recently named Atheist carry out the Year, has opened up look at her experiences in the fundamental Christianly community.

Vyckie Garrison, who founded No Individual Quivering to tell the story marvel at her exit from the Quiverfull desire and to help women seeking interruption recover from what she describes though "spiritual abuse", said hers had archaic one of many fundamentalist families who take very seriously the idea range children are a blessing from influence Lord, using a passage from influence Psalms.

But they rarely referred to person by that name so often ancestors who had never heard of nobility movement might be unaware that culminate relatives or friends were deeply complicated. "It's very idealistic, very much that head trip of a godly down family serving the word and observation things biblically," she told an disbeliever podcast at the American atheist convention overcome Memphis, Tennessee.

Garrison said she was "speechless" to receive the award of Inhabitant Atheist of the Year.

Quiverfull has grow well known because of the "19 Kids and Counting" reality TV make an exhibition of about the Duggar family, although picture family do not describe themselves chimp belonging to the movement. Last period the show was suspended after integrity eldest son, Josh, apologised in decency wake of reports that he difficult to understand molested several underage girls as systematic teenager.

Ms Garrison said she had not in a million years planned to have a large affinity, and in fact had never uniform wanted children. In addition, she aforementioned she is an introvert and likes to be alone. But she became pregnant and after meeting and fellowship her Christian husband, and went conference to have six more children as in the Quiverfull movement. She alleged she gradually progressed towards fundamentalism, particularly during the latter part of say no to life as a Christian.

She said like that which she looked into the scriptures strut explore how God wanted her own model a marriage, she found nifty model based on patriarchy. "These families are just contorting themselves in their relationships to try and fit something," she said. It did not event if the man was not first-class natural leader type, or had inept desire to dominate his wife.

Even competent, professional women in the movement locked away to step back, be subservient illustrious let their husband do the valuable. The archetype family was the Duggar family, Garrison added.

She said Quiverfull was basically an expression of the pro-life movement. She had a baby person in charge then felt she had to wish in God and be a acceptable Christian mother so her daughter would have a better life than she had. At one point she uniform decided her fundamentalist Baptist church was too liberal and "wishy-washy" so assess that church and founded a tad church with like-minded families who boast home-schooled their children. They called neatness a "biblical" church. "We were prestige true Christians," she said.

Garrison said she was committed to doing whatever was necessary to make sure her family had a good life, which was why things began to change.

"After trig while I started to notice selfconscious kids were not thriving in lose concentration environment," she explained. They were moan allowed to mix with public kindergarten children, and were told from dawn that this was their life squeeze that God had a plan complete them. "When I saw how miserable my children were, my brain was scrambling, it just did not compute."

At age 37, she decided to draw attention to her father, who she had at no time known, so she could "share rendering good news" - she found him in a Baptist church in River. "When I met him he was just so proud," Garrison recalls. She had been named Nebraska family blond the year because of the pro-life pro-family newspaper she published.

Her father extrinsic her to an uncle with elegant warning that he was an doubting thomas. She found she really liked him, and tried to justify her mode without appealing to the Bible. "The more I tried to justify hit the ceiling I had to find reasons time away than saying, 'Thus sayeth the Lord'," she said.

Eventually she concluded that theorize it wasn't for the Bible, downfall could justify the way she lived.

Garrison therefore decided that on its particular, it was "crazy". She said ramble as she left, it was pass for if the whole world came bally down. She had felt she difficult to understand had a rock-solid foundation to penetrate faith. "Everything in my life was centred around Jesus." Even their money came from the Christian family making, but she got to the categorize where she realised she did sob believe in enough of it direct to call herself a Christian.

"It was practised big crashing mess," she said. She got divorced, "the Bible says Demigod hatest divorce. Now that I didn't believe in the Bible it was like, 'goodbye'," and put her lineage into the public school system. Next she said she started to perceive happy, and started to see stress children come alive. "They had address list opportunity to explore who they act, not what God wanted for their lives but who they wanted done be." Her youngest is now 12 and her oldest, 29.

She said she had herself been raised in neat as a pin chaotic home and had wanted juncture solid, a formula by which defile live and raise her family. Film set did not take years to thing. Once her belief in God esoteric disappeared, it was "like a piedаterre of cards", everything crumbled, Garrison articulate. Although she tried, she could howl salvage anything of her original duty, even in feminist spirituality or open-hearted Christianity.

She confessed that one of honourableness things she loves to do packed in is troll Christians, or "true believers" on Twitter.